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The person that taught me a lots of things. I would say that i was the kind of person that always live inside the box but with his existence in my life made me realise many things. Within him i found the warmest embrace that i long for. I would describe him as the rain, he's full with storms and hurricane but i believe that there is rainbow after the rain. He's the kind of person that will makes you wish that you can live and stay by his side forever. He's like the warmest person that i've ever met in my life, though he may seems like the coldest person ever, but believe me once you dive deeper you will find the most awakening and blissful feelings.

He once taught me that i shouldn't run away from a problems because i'm the types of person that always running away from everything that i don't wanna face. At first i couldn't get all of his words till he needs to say and explain it to me many times. Honestly i hate myself for being such a slow witted and hard to be understanding but thank God he's being patience with me. So back to not running away from problems, just imagine this. By running away eventually you will need to comeback right? And when you did comeback the problems is stil gonna be there and it might be more worst than it should be. So by running away it will not gets your problem solved, instead of running from it you should just face it and try to solved it. So here i want to give an example with a Chinese Finger Trap (in case you don't know what it is)

Wikipedia : A Chinese finger trap is a gag toy used to play a practical joke on unsuspecting children and adults. The finger trap is a simple puzzle that traps the victim's fingers in both ends of a small cylinder woven from bamboo.

So with a Chinese finger trap, the most natural response is to pull away, rigth? But when you do, the trap tightens and it becomes impossible to escape. So dealing with painful feelings is much the same. So let's say you feel anxious. You escape and then avoid the things that make you feel anxious so that you can feel safe. Or when you overwhelmed with a deep sadness, you might stay busy or drink to block it out or just running away from it. But when you do that, the emotion that you're trying to escape tightens its grip on your life, because then you have to make your decisions based on things you don't want to feel. But when we turn towards those feelings and we're willing to be in that space, then the trap widens and you get this wiggle room and you get to choose when to be with that feeling and when to step away from it without having to fight your way free. Actually i took that from @drjulie she's a therapist. So i started to learn and trying to live my life to face whatever that might comes in my way. He open my eyes to this kind of things. I feel very grateful to have him by my side. There is a lot more valuable things that he taught me. 

I just wish he could have my pairs of eyes so that he can see how much he means a lot to me. I want to spend the rest of my life with him.

To you: i will always keep on loving you 💗💓💗.

Keep On Loving You; CAS